A Shaky start to a brand new blog and all this mixed up crazy emotions all bottled up. The Flush what a nightmare and the first attack is such an alien feeling, it’s “oh my God I can’t breathe and as u thinking its gone so fast wait…….wait here it comes again, open the windows let me breathe HELP can’t take this anymore. But that is just the surface how about the great MUFFIN Middle omg I can just die whatever I am doing is wrong can’t shake or get rid of this middle. Dare I embrace this no me don’t think so gonna get rid of it, shall I try the gym. These thoughts go through my head and what am I doing blogging that’s what, why? Cos its cheaper and I can just lie here watch tv or blog. I am told this passes when its a mystery everyone has their own clock.